Late Night Coffee and Thoughts

I was sitting here tonight thinking… If someone had asked me five years ago where I thought I would be today, where I am is not where I would have said. You would have heard of an interior designer, a landscape designer, or a wedding event planner. Cause well, that is what I have degrees in, that is what my life goal was. That is what I had my goals set on, and I worked my butt off with it, trying to make it sustainable, yet in the end, it was not unless I was willing to relocate, and well, I am not.

So, one night, not planned, just a weird one of those spare-of-the-moment ideas, I decided to write a book. I had always laughed and talked about writing a book about my life and getting my story out there, cause let us face it, folks, I did some shit. I had a crazy ride, and I think I learned every damn lesson the hardest way possible. Not because it was fun, but because I was so busy outrunning myself that I did not care. I had to do whatever I could to try to outrun those demons of my past. The ones that stuck to my skin like sweat, no matter how much I showered them away it always came back.

As I was coming up with a way to get my life on paper, I pulled a typical Tova moment and started on a completely different book idea. Cause let us face it, that is just what I do. And that is how The Jungle Within was born. It was kind of a memoir, but also a healing map, and the very beginning of my journey in world-building and making up languages of my own. I started to remember my voice, remember my humour and wit, my grace and my wisdom.

By writing this book, I learned that I was creative, that I could really turn words into something good, something that could help people and really reach someone. Not because I have a degree, cause in this field I do not, but what I have is life experience, lessons lived, lessons failed, but with every moment, every word and every experience I became the person I am today. A person who has the love of words and the love to help people.

During my journey so far, not only have I learned things about myself I did not know, achieved things I did not believe I was capable of, but I have pushed myself and tested myself and become such a more balanced person.

Words can heal just as they can break, so my goal with all my books is not only to capture your imagination, but also your soul. To help you heal and learn as you follow the pages of my books.

So tonight, as I sit here with my coffee and my thoughts, I am grateful for the strange path that led me here. I did not plan this life, but I am finally living a life that feels like mine. A life built on words, healing, imagination, and truth. If my books can reach even one person the way writing has reached me, then every messy chapter of my past was worth it.